Jay's Place

All the Jie MeiZ @ Jayme's Place

Just got the photos from Jayme today. The fairy tale begins on 19 Nov 06. Finally they are married. They've come quite a long way and their path wasn't easy. Wishing them happiness always.

Spent the whole of Sat. shopping and putting up the christmas decoration in the office. My first attempt setting up the Christmas Tree. Not exactly 100% satisfy with my deco but well I think it's a good try tho.

I've not told anyone that my favourite festive season is actually Christmas. I've always love Christmas. The Christmas tree, lighting, the feeling of giving and the warmth feeling of having a nice Christmas dinner with the pple you love and opening up of presents under the Christmas tree.

I've only experience this once when I was little very little. At my cousin's place. It was a nice feeling which I've not forgotten till now. After tat memorable time, I've not given a chance to experience it again. My family practically does not celebrate any festive season other than CNY. A season which well.... dun really enjoy. Bascially to me it's just a season for the hypocrites whom have no choice but to succumb to the tradition.

I really hope to have a chance to spend Christmas in some place which will snow with someone I love. Maybe some place in States. Having a christmas tree by the fire place and opening up presents on boxing day. It's a dream which I do hope it will come true.

Christmas is a day which I hate to spend it alone and I've always have. It's sad isn't it? Well nothing is very much happy in my life anyway. Alone is what I've felt all my life. Everyone seems to have a motive in everything they do. I'm feeling so sick at times. Why pple can't do things with sincerity? I've not done anything to anyone with any ill intention in mind but I do not know about others. To me...human are actually the scariest living thing on earth...definitely not those man eating creatures.

Miki @ 3 mths old

Cookie our newest member of the family @ 1.5 mths old

Miki is born on 3 March 2004. She is almost 3 years old. She has been the Princess in the house.

Cookie has just joined us on 8 Nov '06. He is borned on 22 Sept 2006. He is very active. Plays with everyone in the family. Loves to chase after legs. It's fun to just see him bouncing everywhere ard the house. We've got a Princess now here comes the Prince.

Jealousy is in the air. Miki is having a very hard time getting used to Cookie. She doesn't want Cookie anywhere near her at all. But Cookie is not giving up. He is constantly on Miki's back lol I think they will be able to be buddies in no time.

Now I've one more baby to take care and to train all over again. It's tough but I'm definitely more than willing to do this all over again.

Hmmm... failed my drving test today. My mood is down but I'll try hard at the next test. No demerit points was given for my circuit. It was perfect but I blew it when I went out on the road and it started raining. Well maybe thru out the whole driving course, I've never drive in a raining condition before. Never the less. I'll definitely do better at the next test. No immediately failure but I hit 32 points.

Guess I've been quite lazy with diet. I'm behind time by 1kg.

I've just induldge myself to a fantastic seafood dinner in JB. How sinful can I get?

Weighing @ 89kg today.

Down with very bad flu, sore throat & headache.

All are saying it's due to my dieting. I quite doubt so. I very much think it's the weather. But it may be true to some extend. Maybe I'm not getting enough vitamins thru my diet thus leading to easy invasion of viruses.

Doc gave only 1 day MC but I'm still feeling very very bad. Can't extend my MC as my work doesn't allows me to do tat. Sigh.

Went gym today jogged 6.5km. Had steam bath and suana too.

Totally shagged out today? Think I've kinda pulled my right thigh muscles. Hurting a bit. But think I'll be fine. Will be going swimming tomoro if it doesn't rain.

Weighing 90.4kg today.

Ian

Mark dressing up as an ANGEL

Have not met up with these guys for quite a number of mths oredi. Ian says he has put on weight. Mark has slimmed down so much. Well he had to coz it took him mths to work for this body for Halloween nite.

Been mths since I've clubbed. We went in bout 11.30pm and once the music starts rolling I danced all the way till 3.30am.

Well it's quite a work out for the nite.

Received a sms from Henry on Friday afternoon.

"You had your revenge... I hope you are happy"

How many times do I have to tell you? Revenge is something I would not even think of it. But I guess you would never ever understand that. It doesn't matter anymore. As long as you are happy with wat you think it's ok. Like I've said I've always wish the best for you. If you wish to think other wise I can't help it.

I did not reply his sms.

Received another sms from him again on Sat. nite while I was clubbing.

"I'm glad you got it over with. It's justice at last. To be dumped by you."

Can't imagine you could even say such childish stuff. To be dumped by me? Maybe it's really justice indeed for me. For me to keep you out of my life. For making my life simpler and easier. One lesser person for me to please and care about.

Maybe you really think I'm really a big fuck in your life but somehow or rather I dun feel it at all. All I can ever felt is I'm just there for you when you are having some fucking problems with Shannen and your life. Have you ever really been there for me when I really needed someone to talk to? I guess it has always been a one way street all this while.

I really hate to make this decision. We have been thru so much just to settle in this friendship. You can put it that I'm the one that destroy it. A closure would definitely do the both of us good.

It's Henry's birthday today. He was not exactly feeling good a few days before. sms him yesterday to check on him to see if he is alright. No reply from him. sms him again today. no reply from him. Tried calling him but he hung up on me the first time. I was kinda worried and I tried calling him the second time. He answered but told me he's in a car and will talked to me later. Asked him why didn't he replied the excuse he gave was if he has the chance he would. Of all the excuses he used such a lame one? I can't believe it. How long would it take you to key in "I'm ok."??? It's just a matter whether you want to do it or not.

Well I guess he must be BZ or well at least enjoying himself on this special day of his. Guess what I got from him? Telling me that I had the chance too but i gave it up.

I'm really disappointed in him. What the hell is he thinking of? A mere concern for him as a friend and this is what I get. Does he really think he's such a big FUCK?

I'm really beginning to think that what he says might be good. A closure for us might just do the trick. Put an end to my misery for being kind and showing concern as a friend. I treated him as a good friend but does he? Mine's a genuine concern for him but is his genuine too? I just dun see why should I put up being hurt by him again and again. Well I don't see the need to find out anymore. Should have just kept you out of my life sooner.

Thanks for making me realise it today.

Played Hotel with Sandy, Li Ming and Peter till bout 4 plus and ya! I was the ultimate winner. Previously played Monopoly with them and I've managed to win too.

Peter had a flat tyre and he had to changed it. By the time I reached home it's already 5.15am.

Gosh! I had arranged for a swimming session @ 11am with Raymond. Almost could not wake up. Reached the pool @ 11.10am. Ya! I was late. Started my 30 lap swim. Boy! I felt so heavy & lethargic. I can't seems to move in water. Completed my laps in 55mins. Looks like I've got to work harder to hit 30 in 40 mins.

Weighing @ 91kg today.

Feeling sleepy today. Do not know if it's the haze affecting.

Doing everything so slowly. Unable to concentrate well. Feeling restless.

Weighing @ 91.5kg today.

May have to start getting some new clothes. Some of my shorts and tops are getting a bit too loose.

Recently I've been trying to control my feelings. Quite unwilling to just let them go. Doubts are running all over my head.

I'm feeling so tired with my feelings. Do not know how to handle them anymore. I'm afraid. Afraid I would make a wrong decision. I'm afraid I would hurt myself and hurt others.

Should I react or just stay neutral? Fear is creeping in slowly. I'm quite so afraid to react. Should I just stay away? Is the person here with the right reason or just to fill up that temporary relieve. I'm all confused. I've got no one to turn to except here.

Wake up Karen. Wake up. Think straight! Get the right things done! Don't let your feelings rule your head. You just want a simple life. Nothing fanciful. Just needed someone true.

Dedicated to me by Henry.

Not much idea how should I look at it. How true are these lyrics? I wonder how would Shannen feel. Hmm... this came too late. How come I dun feel anything? If I had this when we were together I'll be so touched but well... Thanks for your kind thots. I do appreciate your concern for me.

Hey... dun worry bout me k. Tho I'm on diet now but I'm eating healthy and I'm also excercising. Besides I'm having someone guiding me on my excercise now so I should be quite alright. =) It's just a matter of getting used to the new eating habits thats all. I'm coping well.

"Just.. Just.. Just for me

Jealousy!

Jealousy!

I will show you the way and so you'll know me alone
And now you're trying to tell me what is my jealousy
all that means to me

You believe in my heart and i can lose my control
You will be in my mind so i can give you my honesty or my fantasy
Another woman, another woman for Jealousy

I die for easy love today
I feel my love with you must stay
just a lover for me, just a moment to feel,
just the woman for me

You have said it to me and never leave me alone
I'll come in your arms you'll be forever in my memory
Kiss me suddenly
Another woman, another woman for me

I live in your face and i see the love in your eyes
i love you so much you stay with me tonight
every night, every night, every night, every night
Every night with my Jealousy

I die for easy love today
I feel my love with you must stay
just the lover for me, just the moment to feel,
just the woman for me

I die for easy love today
I feel my love with you must stay
just the lover for me, just the moment to feel,
just the woman for me
I know you're the best i love

Jealousy!

Jea.. Jealousy

Just.. Just.. Just for me

Jealousy!

I die for easy love today
I feel my love with you must stay
just the lover for me, just the moment to feel,
just the woman for me
I know you're the best i love

Jealousy!

I die for easy..
I feel your passion..
I want to hold you now you can stay near to me..
I die for needing..
I feel forever..
I want your heart and now..
I wanna go away.."

Had a great swim today. Swam 40 laps. Raymond told me to try swimming 30 laps in 40 mins. Guess I missed that target today. Swam 30 laps in 50 mins. Am a lousy swimmer but I'm sure I'll improved in time to come and with his advise on my swimming technique.

Saw Celine today at Bugis Junction. Had not seen her for a long time. I'm happy at something that she said. She told me that I've lost quite a bit of weight. I remembered the last time I saw her at Suntec she commented that I've put on weight. Glad that my weight lost program is working & it's showing =)

Raymond brought me to makan "chou tou fu". Finally had the chance to try it. hmmm... it wasn't so smelly eating it but after we had finished our food, the cooking of the tou fu gave out some kinda smell which eermmm... I find a bit smelly *sheepish smile*

Weighing @ 93.3kg today.

Was talking to someone about travelling. It brings back some memories when I was in States bout 4 years ago.

2 pictures of Grand Canyon which I've taken when I was in Arizona. Love it there. It gives me a feeling of being alone & free! Just in the arms of mother nature. Away from the crowd, away from all the fake and hypocritical stuff and pple.

Long to be back to the arms of mother nature.

Have been shutting myself away from pple for quite some time now. I wonder when will I be getting back on track and start meeting up with pple. I think it's high time for me to just get away from Singapore. Guess the air is stale here in Singapore. I need a recharge. Time to get away! Should I just sail to Bintan again? Hmmm... maybe I should.

Dieting and Excercising is such a torture. Its not easy but I'll perservere.

Just felt that it's really time that I do something about it before I grow old and die UGLY.

Many tells me that I've nice features. The only thing that this comment basically just stopped there is coz of my size. I'm FAT. I get guys telling me if I slim down they will definitely woo me for sure. Haahaa! I find this a real joke. If I were to slim down what makes them so sure that I'll want them? Anyway thats beside the point. My real point is that I just want to be really gorgeous for once. From head to toe.

It's really tough to lose weight. I really swear that if I really succeeded in losing my weight I swear that I'm not going to be fat ever again! Losing weight KILLS!

Weighing 94.2kg now.

Weight going down slow and steady. Am getting use to my 1000 calories diet.

Targetting to hit 88kg by 1 Nov.

Working very hard now.

Hmmm... Just found out that when ladies are having their menses, they will start weighing at least 800 grams heavier! Duh! For those who are dieting, your weight will be stagnant or you'll gain a bit.

Not to worry too much. When it's over, it's back to normal! *grinZ*

Recently I'm on a strict 1000 cal diet. It's tough. I keep feeling hungry. But the 1000 cal diet is working on me.

I was 98.1kg. Now i'm only 95.4kg and it has only been 3 days. I'm excited. I'm working on something hope that things will work out.

Praying hard!

What is Happiness?

Happiness

Happiness is a state of the mind. The dictionary definition is "feelings of joy and pleasure mingled together”. A feeling of happiness is more than just an experience of joy or pleasure. It is a state of mind where the individual feels that “life is good”.

This state of mind can be induced by many means – some result in short term happiness while others result in long lasting happiness. One way of inducing long lasting happiness and bliss is meditation. For a busy person, a more practical way to becoming happier is to make steady progress towards meaningful goals.Even though this seems simple, it really is a very powerful technique to attain a state of long lasting happiness. The goals may vary from individual to individual, but for everyone happiness comes from merely making steady progress towards goals that are meaningful to them. The key is that goals have to be meaningful to you. Progress towards goals set by some one else will not bring happiness (unless you too desire the same goals).

There should be a balance in your goals to ensure that the prerequisites of happiness are fulfilled. These prerequisites include good health, sufficient income to meet basic needs, affection, some productive work or activity, defined and achievable goals and good attitude. All the money in the world will not make you happy if you ignore your health or have bad relationships. Also you must try to remove the causes of unhappiness from your life. These causes are - lack of any of the prerequisites for happiness, failure to achieve goals, envy, relationship problems, loneliness and fear of the opinion of others.

Studies have shown that a number of factors contribute to sustained happiness. Some of these are:

Good self esteem
Feeling of control over one’s life
Supportive and warm relationships (marriage/friendship )
Satisfying work
Enjoyable leisure activities
Good attitude
Good Health
Moderation in everything
Impersonal interests

Thus a very effective process of becoming happier is to set goals for improvement in each one of these areas, develop a plan of action, start executing on the plan, and then periodically review the progress towards these goals.

Above is an article I've read. I've been asking myself wat the hack is happiness. I've been reading up about happiness. But does reading up and knowing the definition of happiness and you will be able to find wat real happiness really is?

Ok! I've not been feeling very happy recently maybe thats why I've spent some time to read up wat happiness really is and how can i make myself happy. But after all these reading up I still can't find the happiness that I'm ultimately looking for. Worst still. I can't even pin point to exactly wat i'm unhappy about.

I've a job, stable income, a home i can come back to, frens to hang out with. I've all the basic stuff. Does these makes me happy? NOPE! And it's a big NO NO. Why? I guess it's easy. I wish to do better in my job, get better increment & more bonuses, a more understanding and warmer home, more heart warming and true frens!

See! All are expectations. I've come to realise that expectation is the root to happiness. You can have all kinds of expectation. There are 2 kinds of expectation you can have to make you happy. No. 1 : Achieve all your expectations and you will feel happy. No. 2 : Lower your expectation and make do with wat you have and be happy with wat you have coz there might be pple who are worse off than yourself.

I find this quote from Bette Davis very true. Here goes:

You will never be happier than you expect. To change your happiness, change your expectation.

Am talking to an old fren of mine today. Something just popped into my mind when she told me that Miki is so pretty. Indeed I love my baby but I told her I can't imagine that I'm going to lose her in 8 years time. Although it's only just a thot but it just brought tears to my eyes.

No matter how much we can try to prolong her life but she will never out live us.

I've grown so attached to her. She has become one of our family member whom we can't do without.

Heard that you are attached again. Feel happy and sad at the same time.

Is your armour so easy to penetrate? It seems like it. You've told me to build an armour for myself but I can't bring myself to do it. Not necessary lah. Love will come and go.... why make life so hard for yourself leh?

Happy for you: Glad you found someone. Someone who can break into your armour. Someone who managed to make you happy. Someone whom you can share your life and the stage you are on.

Sad for you: Is he really someone who had broken your armour or you just didn't had your armour on then? Is he just your replacement for whoever you might not have really gotten over? Is he gonna be someone you are gonna hurt once you forgot about your armour?

something that sets me pondering....am I right or wrong?

Have you ever have the feeling of being desired?

I do not know how to describe that feeling. But I can say for sure that it's indeed a nice feeling to have.

Is it because I'm being desired and it prevents me from being worried that I'm not married? Hmmm.... Strange.... Well Robin... Maybe you are rite.

Whats marriage anyway. Marriage is so fragile now a days. It's like a piece of glass left untouched yet you can see cracks forming. Strange isn't it? Guess marriage is a high maintenance commitment which is quite impossible in this era.

Why does the truth always hurts? Why doesn't pple like to hear the truth? Why can't pple handle the truth? Why oh why?

I know you like me to say things that please you but you should know my character. I do not like to be a hypocrite. I love to always speak my mind. If you are unable to handle the truth then dun ask me questions.

Remember. Your efforts are not wasted. I just do not have the luxury to listen to all the songs you have given me. More than 500 songs. How do you expect me to finish all within 2 days? You should know your preference of songs and mine is a great diff. It took me quite some time before I can even learn to appreciate it.

You know I can let you have your way if you are reasonable. Well which most of the time you are but certain times I just need to have it my way because i just can't see your point. I lose my temper and you may also lose yours. It's not going to do us good. Hey... dun be so petty k? It's time for both of us to tone down. I do appreciate the effort you have put in for the both of us. This friendship does not comes easy. You should know. I do cherish the relationship that both of us are having now.

Well I've found 9 songs which I really really like from your list. Happy now? (^_^)V

Met up with H finally. Guess he got thru the stage in avoiding me. Or just maybe cause he broke up?

But none the less, I enjoyed my night. Feels like going back to the days when we just meet for dinner, movie etc.

Indeed we were better off as frens. Or was it that both of us are more mature now? Beats me! (^_^)

Thanks for the toys. Those 2 colors are both yours and mine. Just for another memory sake =)

Sadako???

Ju-On???

Aiyooo... Robin always snap me at my worst! lol! but its fun to get all these errrmmmm.... horrible shots! You dun get horrible nice shots often =)

Went to catch "Helen the Baby Fox" tonite. It's a very touching show. Think I'll go grab the DVD when it's out. Thou its a very short movie but it indeed teaches even adults to live life to the fullest. I love this phase from the movie "Helen keeps trying because you keep trying" It makes me realise that in life we need encouragement to move on in life in our most difficult time.

Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICCA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
hey
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
hey =)
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
whats up? =)
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
nahhhh... just say hi
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
ok la...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
wanna chat with me about anything?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
haahaa chat with you later everything all talk about nookie again
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
wat else can we chat about?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
actually wun la...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you in the mood for serious talk?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
hard to chat with you lah
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
well nothing much bout serious mood or wat
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if can chat just chat loh
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
actually much easier now cause i read you blog many many times...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
just feeling a bit bored
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
note the absence of the "=)"
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
read my blog many many times?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i in serious mood...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
wat for?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
nothing much bout my blog
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
see whats going on in your mind lor... things that you often hide away from me...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i ask you now...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
can you completely forget about me?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i did?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
of coz not
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
like i say i got to get on with my life
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
yes....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
life's got to go on with or without you
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
forget me and move on please...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
true...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
dun just say...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
do....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am a jerk you know that...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i will move on... forget?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
nahhh some things you can't just forget
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
its revenge you want?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i did what i have to do...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
revenge i've never thot of that b4
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i know
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you just do wat you have to do
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
believe it or not... i was hurt very badly too... contary to your delusions...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
it's your life too
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you keep saying can never forget how i break your heart....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i tell you now...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
for the record...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
contary to my delusions?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
it was you who broke mine....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
regardless wat happen
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i dun deny i break yours
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i guess you just do not know how i felt then
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
it's ok
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
both of us have our own view points
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
dun worry
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i've never hated you
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
so there won't ever be any revenge
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i do... i hated you... i had my revenge... and now i hate myself...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you had your revenge?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i know maybe perhaps you will be posting this log onto your blog again...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i do hope it will serve as a closure to us...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you want a closure to us i can only say that if you really want it i'll fulfill this closure
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i can't stop you from hating me
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
it will... and i just want you to know that i am very sorry we dragged on for so long...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
and for opening up the fresh wounds over and over again...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
there isn't a need for sorry
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
and for making you cry...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
let the next guy make you as happy as i once did...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to care bout my tears
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
wat can i say?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you know your tears always mean something to me...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
dun forget i loved you very very very deeply once before...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i can only say that sometimes you just can't be with the person you truely love
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
now you can forget all about me....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
dun...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i fully understand that
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i can only say that i have always wish the best for you
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i do still care for you even now
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
pls pls pls..
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
don't....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
for one very simple reason...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am not worth it....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
it's just one side... dun worry you dun have to care bout me... you hate me remember?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to care bout how i feel
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
dont make me hate myself even more...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i dont want to be responsible...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i want to be the kid that i am...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to be responsible for anything
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
we are no longer related remember?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you are feeling this way due to me...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i dont want to be in your life anymore...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i dont want to be your pain...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to be.
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
let me out...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
it's your choice
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you are out
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
let me go...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
then go
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you have let go then you just go
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i'm not stopping you
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i can have my own memories
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
guess i'm not like you
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am bound by your memories....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
why would you be bounded by my memories?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you want to be the kid you are
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you have really forgotten me
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you really hated me
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you wouldn't be bounded by anything bout me at all
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you know since our pa toh days...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
rem at cineleisure...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i guess if we had never started anything we would have been the best of frens
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
after movie you ask me to just go home on my own...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i insist on seeing you to the bus stop at least...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i told you i am not a 6 year old boy....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i know
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am bounded that way now...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i dont want to be...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to be
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
wat has happen between us is already the past
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
then please dun be sad anymore....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
that is what stands in our way of being normal frens...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
because you hold the past too tightly...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i'm sory i just can't
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i mean i just can't say forget and i'll forget
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you may think i'm emotionally strong i'm not as strong as you think i am
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you handle it better than i do
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i'm glad you did
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
until the day you can do so... there will be forever a barrier btw us...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
so for our sake...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
let go of the past...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i'm trying hard to let go
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
so that we can start a new
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i know...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
so you see... i had no choice but to go...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
its not that i am bigot...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
but i know i going will hurt you lots...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am going to disappear totally...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am serious this time...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i hope our conversation tonight will help seal some closure...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
please...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
be happy....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
so long...

Is this the end? Will this really put a closure to everything? Will everything start afresh? Will I forget everything? I have all the answers to these questions but does it helps? How are you able to make yourself forget anything? We can only try not to think about it or not to bring it up ever again. We are not computers. We just can't delete our memories as and when we want. Don't you understand?

Memories are not meant to be forgotten. It's not as easy as you think it is.

Life will go on for me for sure. Just wanna let you know my love for you have already evolved. It is no longer the love I had for you in the past. Our love have already come to a full stop. Pls do not misunderstood me. I've gone on. The love I have for you now is only friendship. If you think by avoiding me is the best way for you, go ahead. All I know is that I dun have the need to avoid you.

Found this in my Frienster this morning. I'm quite touched. Indeed we have known each other for quite sometime oredi. I'm sure that we are constantly exploring each other. I'm sure there are still many stuff that we do not know bout each other. Since you have decided to keep me close to you for many years to come we'll take our time to know each other better and more. *HUGZ* Thanks for your frenship dear.



"char bo! Woah I know this char bo for quite a while liao. She has been pretty much the same all these years on the whole. Perhap she keeps a lot of things in her just like I do, except that I tend to protray emotions more readily. Just a gut feel there. Nonetheless she knows what she wants most of the time and is definitely a great fren to have. We're travelled. She's seen my ear needle pierced. Had her vigin trip to the foot reflex man. A lot of 'first times' were done together. perhaps when i'm with her i get into the impromptu mood, and plunge into whatever that stands before me. karen's a fren that i would want to keep close to me for many many years, cause unlike others i know she won't break my glass heart. luv ya babe! you do know i'm with u in what you do. i'll see u soon! :)"

Met up with Mark and GB last nite. While waiting for Gb to come, me and Mark went shopping. He wanted some facial products and I brought him to Face Shop. Wanted to intro him the mushroom mask but it was out of stock. Went to Body Shop and guess wat. He bought S$100 plus of Body Shop products which of coz include some of my items lol! We call it the retail therapy. Wanted to pay him back but he asked me to give him a treat next time we meet. Well... thanks pal!

Next stop... MAKAN! Walked past Wan Yang Health Products & Foot Reflexology Centre. Mark suddenly digged out from his wallet a "slated vege card" lol he had signed up 2 years ago for a foot reflex package. He decided to give me a foot reflex treat. hmmm... My first foot reflex. Goosh... I'm quite nervous. My threshold for pain is not that high. Heard tat it can be quite pain. Went in sat down and the reflex started. Feels shiok! but not for long... haahaa! All my problem areas starts to surface! My tailbone, gastric, my shoulders and ermmm... my brain also kena haahaa maybe it's due to stress.

Mark suddenly commented we shared quite a few of our "First Time" come to think of it... quite true.

Our first time going holiday one on one together, his first time piercing of ear with needle, I was there, me first time dancing on the podium at a club he was there, his first time puking after drinking I was there (errr... was it his first time? lol!) and my first time foot reflex he was there.

Wonder how many more of our first time we are gonna share again *grinz*

It was quite fun that nite chatting. Been a long time since I've met up with GB. Think it's bout a year or more already. She's getting married in Dec. Am happy for her. It's high time for her to tie the knot too =) Mark volunteered to be her door bitch at her wedding and tat was exactly wat I'm thinking haahaa! "Great mind think alike and fools seldom differ"

Sometimes when you read all these, you really feel like laughing. This is so amusing yet there's at least 90% truth in it.

Men:
1. All men are extremely busy.
2. Although they are so busy, they still have time for women.
3. Although they have time for women, they don't really care for them.
4. Although they don't really care for them, they always have one around.
5. Although they always have one around them, they always try their luck with others.
6. Although they try their luck with others, they get really pissed off if the woman leaves them.
7. Although the woman leaves them they still don't learn from their mistakes and still try their luck with others!

Women:
1. The most important thing for a woman is financial security.
2. Although this is so important, they still go out and buy expensive clothes and stuff.
3. Although they always buy expensive clothes, they will still say that they never have something to wear!
4. Although they never have something to wear, they always dress beautifully.
5. Although they always dress beautifully, you hardly care.
6. Although you hardly care, they still expect you to compliment them.
7. Although they expect you to compliment them, when you do, they don't believe you!

Johnson the guy in NIKE T-Shirt

Johnson sms me yesterday afternoon asking me, Sandy and a few other chatters if we are free to meet for dinner, 7pm at the ever famous ba kut teh stall at Balestier.

Everyone says see first and end up only me and Johnson actually turned up for dinner.

The Ba Kut Teh from "Fa Qi Ren Rou Gu Cha" is indeed good. The soup is fantastic, salted vege is so fresh and the meat for the ba kat is really tender. We really enjoyed the dinner.

As I was out with him tonite, I can't help thinking. Many have commented that he is very stingy but he was never stingy on me. Last time I understood why he was never stingy on me but till now he's still the same to me. Haahaa maybe I'm thinking too much. Quite a few seems not to have good impression of him but not me. As a matter of fact I do find him very nice. Someone who is mature, someone who think twice before speaking and making decision. Someone who listens and give sensible advise. He is also someone who is very thrifty and maybe due to that many mistake him as stingy. I guess it takes one to know him better or someone who talks to him often enuff to know that.

I was grumbling to him about my new colleague today on our way for dinner. He listens and telling me to give pple the benefit of doubt. Not many can do that now a days.

I used to give pple benefit of doubt. I think I've been changing... wondering if this is good or bad.

Pessimism: Most of the shadows of this life are caused by standing in one’s own sunshine.

A Friend...
(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally support
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T) ells you the truth when you needto hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)- plain things you don'tunderstand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and
(Z)aps you back to reality

Does this really happens? Will I be able to find this Friend? This world is giving me a lot of doubts recently. I used to be so full of hopes and optimistic in most things but recent months something seems to pull me down. Sigh.

Work is getting tough in IA. Now I fully understand this when my colleague sms me the other time.

I'm beginning to wonder. Am I in this job for too long? I used to look up to my Boss. Now? I seems to detest him more and more.

What has he done to have this drastic impact on me? He used to be very firmed in his decision but for the past 1 or 2 years, he is getting to be very forgetful and would normally thinks he has told us stuff but in fact didn't. No longer the I say wat I do style anymore.

To me he is getting to be more and more stubborn and seems to be very bias in his thinking.

How long more can I put up with this? I don't deny that I do make mistakes in my work. Like I've told you. I would never dream of taking the easy way out in my work. I do take my work seriously but will you ever understand? Sigh.

6 Jul 06, 10.31am
If can we come out for coffee one day k? =>

6 Jul 06, 10.36am
Glad to still have you =>

6 Jul 06, 10.40am
Sometime it's nice to have another friend to talk to =>

6 Jul 06, 10.46pm
Actually .. you know wat I really miss a lot... Its the period before we were together. As friends going out .. Crystal jade... Movies...

6 Jul 06, 10.54pm
no doubt that that's the main draw.. but really ... I do cherish your company and I've always been envious of your friendster pics.

8 Jul 06, 3.01pm
Wat you doing today? =>

8 Jul 06, 4.38pm
Last time saturday was our swimming day or was it sunday?

8 Jul 06, 4.47pm
Oh.. Silly me used to make my way Bukit Panjang all the way to Tampines for you =>


Why do you wanna bring up the past again? Or you just needed someone familiar to talk to? Sigh. You are the one that choose to give me up in the first place. I know I'll never go back to you again even if you were to ask me coz I know myself that I won't be able to face the hurt you have done to me the second time. You are the second person whom have made me fell so deep. It wasn't easy for me to pick myself up again but I managed to do it and get on with life. Or have I not. Coz thinking bout you at times still brought tears to my eyes. Maybe we are only fated to be friends and friends only. But I know that I'll always have that soft spot for you. Praying hard that it will never be abused.

Surfing and chance upon this. Tho it's describing feelings for GOD but indeed it does describe how I feel bout him. Dun ever think he will ever understand.

Broadway Aida: Easy as Life

This is the moment when the gods expect me
To beg for help but I won't even try
I want nothing in this world but myself to protect me
But I won't lie down, roll over and die
All I have to do is to forget how much I love him
All I have to do is put my longing to one side
Tell myself that love's an ever-changing situation
Passion would have cooled and all the magic would have died
It's easy, it's easy

All I have to do is to pretend I never knew him
On those very rare occasions when he steals into my heart
Better to have lost him when the ties were barely binding
Better the contempt of the familiar cannot start
It's easy, It's easy

Until I think about him as he was when I last touched him
And how he would have been were I to be with him today
Those very rare occasions don't let up they keep on coming
All I ever wanted and I'm throwing it away
It's easy, it's easy as life

But then I saw the faces of a worn , defeated people
A father and a nation who won't let a coward run
is this how the gods reward the faithful through the ages ?
Forcing us to prove the hardest thing we've done
Are easy So easy
And though I'll think about him til the earth draws in around me
And though I choose to leave him for another kind of love
There is no denial, no betrayal but redemption
Redeemed in my own eyes and in the pantheon above
It's easy It's easy as life It's easy as life It's easy as life

Been concentrating on my work and my driving lessons. I'm kinda shagged out by both. Recently have been feeling so tired and and no energy for any other stuff.

Been trying to get my ass out of the hse but to no avail. The only other places I can be found is either in the gym or at the swimming pool. Once I'm home, nothing can drag me out of my bedroom's doorstep. Ya.... been tat bad. Maybe I should find some time to catch up with some old frens and maybe go clubbing once in a while.

Hmm... maybe it will do me good. *grinZ*

Here's the photo you've been requesting me to put up. Good to know that you are now attached. Like I've said. At the same time you've broken quite a number of hearts. lol

I've just heard of the most absurb thing. Someone whom have been wishing you the best for you and your guy in your blog is actually jealous of you and your guy. Can't believe it. How hypocrite one can get. To even think that you had once admire his courage to confess his feelings to you.

Haahaa maybe you are just one lucky guy to have so many pple head over heels in love with you. It can be good but well not exactly very good in some ways too.

Nevertheless my dear fren. I'm wishing you the best in your relationship. Glad you have found someone who can appreciate you to the fullest.

Hope you will still have time for this fren of yours *GrinZ*

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career,
however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

- by Max Ehrmann c. 1920s

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is overAre you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Oh
Why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong

29 Jun 06, 8.59pm
How have you been? Nice pics on friendster.. Miss ya..

Reply: I'm fine. How are you?

29 Jun 06, 11.06pm
Fine too.. Did i mention tat i miss you? =>

No Reply

29 Jun 06, 11.16pm
Wat's up recently?

No Reply

29 Jun 06, 11.36pm
Phone rings....

Me: Harlow?
Him: Where are you?
Me: Home loh... (MSN alert went off, change songs on my laptop. Playing: Corrine Bailey Rae... Trouble Sleeping)
Him: Oh you BZ. Wah.. sounds like "orr lang" song
Me: ya but not "orr lang"
Him: you BZ? then you go and do your things. err....reply msn or go listen to your music.
Me: BZ no leh MSN i can don't reply and music I every nite also listen. Hey.. I thot you dun wanna talk to me liao?
Him: Errr... ok bye bye.
Me: Still so small gas as ever. ok loh bye.
Him: bye. I going to sleep liao (hangs up)

29 Jun 06, 11.39pm
Comments liao liao =>

Reply: Well tats me. You first day know me?

29 Jun 06, 11.44pm
Know you inside out =>

No Reply

29 Jun 06, 11.52pm
Well.. Just to let you know tat I'm glad to see and hear you doing well.. And tat I've been thinking about you.. =>

Reply: Thanks for your thots about me. Hope you are doing well too.

Moral of the whole correspondence? I dunno too. As usual... you are always the one who tells me we shouldn't contact. Ultimately you would be the first one to start communication all over again.

You are someone whom I've really put my heart and soul into. You are also the one who has hurt me the deepest. I've put the past behind but I'll always have a soft spot for you. Could never bring myself to hate you at all.

If she is the one for you, be good to her. Tho her temper is definitely worse than mine but I guess you needed that *grinZ* maybe I've been too giving to you in the past too. I really do wish to see you do good in life.

May God Bless You.

Yours (Ex).

Life: Life is a lively process of becoming.

4th driving lesson. Instructor: Clifford. A very nice chap. Highlighted my weak points and make me practice it. Advising me on when would be a good time to come for certain lessons which I didn't even think about it.

Even give me extra time to ask him questions after the lesson time ended. He make sure I understand bout engaging engine brake b4 letting me go =) During lesson he keeps encouraging me. Things I've done wrong he reminded me and repeat himself all over again. If i've done well he will give encouragement. I'm totally at ease today tho there are too much instructions to remember and to follow. Hope I'm able to perform at the next lesson.

He also offered to assist me in the event if i'm sometimes confused by instructors' given instructions on the DOs and Don'ts, feel free to catch him ard the school and clarify with him.

PS: I got a feeling if I'm driving next time I'll be caught for speeding lol! Just today I'm driving at 60km/h at my 4th lesson. I simply hate the brakes. I'm able to control the bends pretty well with my 40km/h speed but Clifford keeps complaining I'm going too fast at the bend. I had better slow down if I want a pass. *GrinZ*

Life in office is getting tougher.

Colleagues.... especially the senior ones are getting more nonchalant with many things happening ard us.

Just yesterday a colleague sms me telling me how stressed out and unhappy he is at work. I guess he is not used to the change of the company especially Boss.

I can fully understand. Most of the time you put in your best efforts but kena put down from pple on top.

Thats life I guess. As for me I'm just making the best out of each day, week, month and year. Learning every bit I can and experiencing every bit I can.

Motivation: Be Miserable. Or Motivate Yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice.

Hmm... last nite kena complain that I got everyone's photo up here but not his. Wei you got to know tat all the stuff i wrote i'll just put up relevant photos mah... you not in the picture hard to put your pic in here lol.

Good to know that you are finally attached. You better arange for your honey to meet up with me k? Since you are now attached haahaa I bet there are many out there gonna be heart broken. Trust me.

And dun forget the stuff you have gotten for me all the way from London =) So when are you free???

So here goes... My dearest Mark with me on my birthday. *clapZ*

Hmm... a boring sunday for me. Couldn't go out. Had to attend to some urgent matters at home.

Finally had my laptop. Not much of a diff having a laptop or a PC haahaa maybe I've got one thats too big. I've got a 17" laptop. My Bro was commenting that I've got something too good and I won't even make full use of it. It's more for gamers instead. Who cares! lol I love my lappie.

Anyway I won't be bringing my lappie out. No reason for me to bring it out too. It's more for space reason.

Yippie... I passed my Advance Theory today! Took me bout 20mins. Thot i would fail coz there are bout 5 questions I'm kinda in doubt. Well who cares now.... I got a pass!

Third driving lesson today too. Gear Shifting... conducted by Patrick my new instructor. He is good... dare to let me go on the road! haahaa Glad everything is ok.

Gear shifting. I'm rather weak with my clutch release. Now I fully understand that why pple say driving needs lotsa concentration lol When I'm concentrating on my gear, clutch, accelerator, steering wheel, side mirrors and rear mirror, I hardly notice where i'm driving to. I'm just following instructions blindly... "Go straight... turn left at junction, change gear, reaching bend... slow down etc..." until I drove thru the road second time then I realise I just passed thru Ubi, the road which I travel home everyday! wat a sotong i am.

Pray hard I'll pass my driving practical test as easy as my theory test *grinz*

Hmm... guess wat? My instructor today is Casey again. COOL! I'm not as nervous as last week. Today was learning how to take the bends. Think I must have done pretty well. Casey asked me if I've ever drive before. Think he must be pretty surprised that I'm a first timer.

Enjoyed my lesson today. Can't believe I managed to chat with my instructor and drive at the same time. Casey's almost 40 this year but he look so young. Max I give him 35. Showed me his children's photo on his mobile while we waited for our turn to pump petrol. Also telling me he loves to speed when he was younger regardless he is riding a bike or driving. Hmmm... now no choice being an instructor if he kena 6 points his instructor's license will be revoked.

Can't wait for my lesson tomorrow again. Dun think I'll see Casey tomorrow.

Ohhhh yay YEAH! Had an exciting nite. My first practical driving lesson tonite. I really thot I would crash the car tonite. I was nervous the whole day till 10.20pm when i finished my lesson with Casey. It went quite well. My very first instructor, Casey is a really nice and patient man. In fact he is quite humourous too. I enjoyed my very first lesson with him. Hope most of the instructors are gonna be as jovial as Casey.

Driving is fun. Hope I'll get my license soon enuff. *keeping my fingers crossed*

Recently I've just read DAN BROWN's The Davinci Code. Came upon something very interesting.

PHI (pronounce as fee) =1.618

The number PHI was derived from the Fibonacci sequence - a progression famous not only because the sum of adjacent terms equalled the next term, but because the quotients of adjacent terms possessed the astonishing property of approaching the number 1.618 - PHI.

PHI, its role as a fundamental building block in nature. Plants animals and even human beings all possessed dimensional properties that adhere exactitude to the ratio of PHI to 1.

PHI ubiquity in nature clearly exceeds coincidence, and so the ancients assumed the number PHI must have been preordained by the creator of the universe. Early scientists heralded 1.618 as the Divine Proportion.

Belows are examples of Divine Proportion in Nature:

If you divide the number of female bees by the number of male bees in any beehives in the world, you always get the same number.

PHI! 1.618

Sunflower seeds grow in opposing spirals. The ratio of each rotation's diameter to the next...

PHI! 1.618

Leonardo Da Vinci understood the divine structure of the human body. He actually exhumed corpses to measure the exact proportions of the human bone structure. He was the first to show that the human body is literally made of building blocks whose proportional ratios always equal to PHI.

Below is Leonardo Da Vinci's famous male nude - The Vitruvian Man - named for Marcus Vitruvius, the brilliant Roman architect who praised the Divine Proportion in his text De Architectura.















Try measuring the distance from the tip of your head to the floor. Then divide that by the distance from your belly button to the floor.

PHI! 1.618

Measure the distance from your shoulder to your fingertips and then divide it by the distance from your elbow to your finger tips.

PHI! 1.618

Measure hip to floor divided by knee to floor.

PHI! 1.618

I'm very very impresed with this. One of these days I'll really try the human body measurement. *grinz*

Breakfast Time! Well prepared for the full day snorkelling at Koh Tao & other islands!



Photos by the resort pool with my parents.


Info about Koh Tao
Koh Tao is a beautiful isle. The first tourists came to Koh Tao in the late 70's, and soon divers discovered this isle too. Diving prices are low on Koh Tao but you shouldn't buy things there because prices are higher. Buy clothes, sunscreen,bags etc.in Bangkok before you go to Koh Tao. The island of Koh Tao also known as Turtle Island and is located to the north of Koh Samui it is very well known due to its variety of sites that cater for the novice all the way up to the experienced diver. The waters are crystal clear and the diving is very relaxing without strong currents.

When is the best time to go?
Sometimes it might be windy (October,November,December) so the visibility is not as good if you are diving then. The best time to go to Koh Tao is February to March if you like it hot. But if you are not that fastidious, you can go at any time of the year and still have a great time!



(Top) On the Way to Koh Tao. About 1.5hrs boat ride. (Bottom) Top View of Koh Tao



(Top) Ok! tats the snorkelling me! *S* (Bottom) One of the underwater photo I've taken.

Koh (thai) means island
Size 250 km2
From Bangkok about 700 km southern
Province of Suratthani
Population: About 47,000 people (2005)
Main town: Baan Nathon



Koh Samui has been discovered for about 1500 years. The first people who lived on Koh Samui were fishermen. The island can be found on 500 years old maps from the Chinese Ming dynasty. Coconut farming and fishing was the major source of incoming on Koh Samui.

Koh Samui which is often called `the island of the coconuts` is the third largest island in Thailand (Only Koh Chang and Koh Phuket are bigger). The area of Koh Samui is about 250 km² and it's located 700 km in the south of Bangkok.The biggest beaches on Koh Samui are Chaweng, Lamai, Bophut, Big Buddha and Maenam. Around Koh Samui are many smaller islands. The most famous are Koh Tao and Koh Phangan.

Koh Samui is an island of natural beauty and charm, a place kicked back and relaxed or active and fast paced.

Beautiful white sand beaches, clean, clear warm water; lush tropical gardens and gentle ocean breezes await you. If you love the beach, this is the place for you!

Koh Samui weather is almost always beautiful. Blue-sky days and a nice ocean breeze are the norm. For the purists, late December to the end of March is the ideal tropical island weather experience. Some like it hot! If so, April to June is the time to really bake. Some like it wet! Try mid-October to early December.

I stayed at Chaba Samui Resort. This is their Suite.



Welcoming us with fresh orchirds and fruits.



They have a mini living room, a dining table and a giant fridge and surprisingly a cooking corner.
Oh ya... they had a TV in the bedroom and one more out here in the living room.



This is a photo taken during sunrise ard 5.30am Thailand time from the balcony.

The Ever Cool Looking Wolferine

Watched X-Men III. Quite a disappointment this time round. Story line is pretty boring. Nothing much to anticipate. Was very surprised that Jean Grey aka Dark Phoenix can be so easily killed by Wolferine.

Never the less I still LOVE X-Men

For those who have stayed till the end of the credits, you would know that Prof. X is not exactly dead *wink* But I still can't figure out why Magneto kena 4 shots from Beast yet he still has hope of recovering his power. Looks like Mystique might appear again. *CheerS*

How true. Read this from a forum written by a fren of mine. Glad I'm not the only one who thinks this way.

"The best friend tag... you take him as best fren but does he?

Ultimately it boils down to you... is ur frenship strong enuff? Sometimes I dun see my best fren for months, or even contact for weeks. But we know we'll always be there for each other. It doesnt matter if he's not around to celebrate my birthday or any special days. But I know he will be there if Im in deep shit and vice versa.

The make of a true friend is not from happiness but from suffering. It is thru your lowest point can you see truly who your frens are from their actions."

i'm so so so tired. No energy left. First day of work after my Koh Samui Trip I'm totally shagged out!

News and photos of Koh Samui coming up soon after I have my rest.

Can't wait for tonite. Going to Koh Samui Yippie! Bringing my parents along too. Hope no hassle with them *S*

When I'm back I'll post all the good pics up.

Haahaa double happiness. Was still thinking of whether should I go get the waterproof casing for my digicam which will cost me $320 so tat I can take underwater photos when I go snorkelling for my Koh Samui trip. Boss just ask me if I wanna borrow his camera for snorkelling. Of coz I can't resist his offer! lol! YIPPIE YIPPIE YIPPIE! I can take underwater photos liao! *clapz*

And YES! I'm going island hopping! ok ok! I know i'm going on and on and on like an energizer battery but I just can't help it. Finally I'm getting to Koh Samui!

Went Happy on May Day. The place sucks! really really SUCKS! I'll never ever step into tat place ever again.

Stupid Door BITCH! Damn! Using the word BITCH is such an insult to the word bitch too! Sigh....

HAPPY SUCKY! how rythm!

Politics are such interesting stuff. It seems like Singaporeans are not bothered unless it's gonna affect their life before they start to take note of what's happening. *shrugs*

There are definitely pple whom I really admire in the PAP and also from the Opposition Parties. *S*

Watched the News on Channel NewsAsia on TV tonight. I think political pple should be more aware of their body language. I think I need not say much if those who had watched Alvin Yeo presented his speech at Chua Chu Kang you will know what I mean.



Alvin Yeo (PAP candidate)

What the PAP says makes sense too. With this statement made by Steve Chia, it's definitely gonna put him at the losing end.

Extracted from Channel NewsAsia on 28 Apr 2006

SINGAPORE : A People's Action Party MP for Hong Kah GRC has questioned Singapore Democratic Alliance candidate Steve Chia's commitment to the residents.

Mr Alvin Yeo was speaking at a PAP rally in Chua Chu Kang on Friday.

Mr Yeo, whose PAP team secured a walkover in Hong Kah GRC, took issue with Mr Chia who has said he would quit politics if he loses this election.

He says: "Some may have read from interviews that Mr Steve Chia has said that if he loses this election, he will retire from politics. In an interview I read in yesterday's Wanbao, Mr Gan Kim Yong says even if he loses this election, he is still young, he is actually older than Mr Steve Chia, he is still young, he still has many opportunities to serve the residents of Chua Chu Kang.

"So I ask you dear friends, who would you rather have to serve your needs, someone who is going to quit after this elections if he doesn't win or someone who is going to stay the course for you. A quitter or a stayer?"

Yaw Shin Leong



Eric Tan



Lee Wai Leng

Worker's Party gives better responses to Gay Question! They definitely outdid PAP!
Of coz. Words are cheap. If things really happens, who knows reaction might be totally opp. from what they have told the press.


Extracted from The Electric New Paper on 26 Apr 2006 ( Day before Nomination Day)

BLUE is calm.

Blue is confidence.

And blue is the colour of the Workers' Party.

Fifteen new WP candidates were introduced over the past few days.
Decked out in sky-blue, they came across as calm, cool and confident.
Among the 15 is a lawyer, a union leader, even a graduate of the University of California, Berkeley, a top US university.

Fielding questions from the media, they spoke confidently about their beliefs and plans.
Gone, it seems, is the era of opposition candidates heckling PAP politicians with loudhailers.
But aren't these WP newbies worried about facing off against the PAP? Why are they so confident?

Mr Yaw Shin Leong, 29, business analyst.

We posed this question to three of the 15 candidates.

Mr Eric Tan, 50, the general manager of a financial services company, laughs off the question.
'You have to be confident in the first place to join the opposition,' he said. But on a more serious note, the father of three daughters added: 'We are confident not because we think we will win. We are confident because we have a tremendous conviction in our beliefs.'

Ms Lee Wai Leng, 26, a businesswoman who runs her own translation company, said: 'We are a bunch of rationally-minded people. We are offering serious views on policies.' She's married with no children.

For Mr Yaw Shin Leong, a business analyst, the confidence can be summed up with a Mandarin idiom: 'You Bei Er Lai'. It means 'to come in prepared'.
The 29-year-old co-owns an e-business consultancy and is married with no children.
He said: 'We have prepared for five years and we have worked to the best of our abilities.'

Ms Lee Wai Leng, 26, businesswoman.
'We offer voters a choice and we will accept their decision,' Mr Tan said. 'Win or lose, our convictions won't change.'

Q Why should I risk upgrading because of you?

Mr Yaw: If voters only want upgrading, then vote for the PAP. Don't vote for us. But if they have a sense of justice and want things to be better, then vote for the Workers' Party.

Mr Tan: You will not be risking upgrading by voting for us. If we win a GRC, the PAP will not dare to ostracise a GRC. They will want to win it back. And we will want to retain it. So you will get your upgrading.

Ms Lee: Voting is not just about upgrading. It is also about checks and balances. We should not be too materialistic. There is more to life than upgrading.

Q Talk is easy. What are you prepared to sacrifice for your beliefs?

Mr Yaw: I will give my life. I believe in national defence and I will fight for my homeland if need be.

Mr Tan: I don't call them sacrifices because I am happy to strive for my ideals.

Ms Lee: It would be my monetary sacrifice. If you compare me to my friends, I won't be embarrassed to tell you I'm the poorer one. But if I'm not going to do it, who will? If you want to be in politics for the long haul, you will have to put in the time and commitment.

Q What did your family and friends say when you told them you were joining the opposition?

Mr Yaw: They were shocked. Even my best buddies didn't expect it even though I was involved in student politics before. But I told them there there are issues that needed to be addressed. And then they supported me.

Mr Tan: Some were supportive and some were not. People have grown used to the system and they have their own loyalties. And then there's the fear among civil servants.

Ms Lee: My family reacted calmly and coolly. They are the traditional type so silence actually means consent. My friends were surprised because they thought that people our age would be more interested in our careers.

Q If you want to change policies, wouldn't it make more sense to join the PAP where the chances of you pushing through your notion is higher?

Mr Yaw: Even company audits are subject to external checks, right? The best system is really a balance between the internal and the external. It is hard to change things from the inside.

Mr Tan: I joined the opposition because of my character. The PAP's role is more administrative. It takes a top-down approach. The opposition's role is in creating value and helping the political system evolve. Ours is a partnership approach.

Ms Lee: You make a more active contribution in opposition politics. Changes that come from within the system are usually just cosmetic. Here at the Workers' Party, we do not do cosmetic changes. Even if the system needs an overhaul, we will do it.

Q What is the most outrageous thing you have ever done?

Mr Yaw: Completing 26 blocks in a walkabout in one day! It took twelve hours straight. It was crazy.

Mr Tan: While backpacking as a student, I attended this rock concert in Barcelona in front of a grand cathedral. We were young, we were drunk, the sky was blue and we were happy. We slept on park benches until the police chased us away in the morning.

Ms Lee: When I was in NUS, I once went for two days and two nights without sleep. I was rushing two essays for my Sociology class. I never knew that I had the stamina to do such things until then! But I did it by keep gulping down cups of tea.

Q If you could have one superpower, what would it be?

Mr Yaw: To be able to be at many different places at one time. There are so many things I want to get done!

Mr Tan: I want to speak many, many languages because I want to reach out to people.

Ms Lee: I want to know all the languages of the world. Languages help you cross barriers. When you learn the language of a country, you find out about their culture and understand their history.

Q If your son told you one day he was gay, what would you do?

Mr Yaw: There would definitely be silence at first. I'd need to absorb the shock. But then, I'd tell him: 'Son, I know you know best.'

Mr Tan: I would accept it. In any case, I shouldn't be shocked if he is my son. I am not a blind parent.

Ms Lee: I would accept it because I encourage diversity. To me, it is just another sexual orientation and it is nothing to be ashamed of.

Q Do you think the Progress Package was a form of electioneering? If so, what are you doing with your share?

Mr Yaw: Incumbent MPs will not admit it is electioneering but I do. I received $500 and I donated all of it to the Workers' Party because I believe in it.

Mr Tan: If the opposition did not exist, would we have received the Progress Package? I received about $1,000 or less. I am thinking of giving it to charity.

Ms Lee: If it is not electioneering, why would they give it out just before the elections? I received $600. I will combine it with the $900 my husband received and buy a laptop for our translation business. I did not think about rejecting the money because if the Government wants to give, why not keep it?

Q Among world leaders, who's your hero?

Mr Yaw: You don't need to look outside of Singapore. I admire J B Jeyaretnam. After so many years, he is still here. He's a stayer, not a quitter.

Mr Tan: Pope John Paul II. He lost his family when he was 18 or 19 and grew up poor. You would think that he would be angry and bitter at life and at God. But he was not. I was touched by it.

Ms Lee: I admire Aung San Suu Kyi. She stands up for what she believes in even though she knows how tough it is going to be.

The Secret Language of Sleep: ACouple's Guide to the Thirty-Nine Positions

My Position: Excalibur

Excalibur Traits and Tendencies: Excalibur couples may battle just as much as other couples (and participate in more than their fair share of public huffs), but they look so good together, it outweighs any other definiencies they may share. It isn't that they're classically good-looking, or similarly sized (though certainly both those pairings are permissible). It's more that the aesthetic chord they strike satisfies in profound ways. Like gorgeously plated food or song filled with unusual harmonies, the wan and freckled hand in hand with the tragically tan, the pigeon-toed with the duck walkers, these Excalibur couples achieve such perfection in their pairing that reminds the world that anything is possible.

Comfort Zone: Excalibur is in the Wind pose family. Other Wind poses you might enjoy include Softserve Swirl and The Ventriloquist.

Health Note: An unexpected rash or orthopedic adjustment can sometimes lead an Excalibur couple to fall out of balance. Physical adjustments may need to be made, or entirely new pose could even be in order.