She called. Now thinking i'm having ONS with someone. She thinks someone close to me stole my phone. She tells me she suspected I didn't really lose my phone. I just reported lost and cancel my line just to put up a show for her. I'm tired. Everything I do everything tat happened to me I would have some intention or motive.

She wanted to meet me for a drink to return my bikini? I dunno wat to say. Next she tells me she needs her book back urgently. Needs me to mail it back to her. Her fren wanted to borrow it from her. How urgent can it get? sigh.

She begs me to spare her. I really need her to spare me more than she needs me to spare her.

I dun have anyone in mind I wanna date. I dun even feel if I wanna get involved with anyone romantically. Phobia in relationship. Phobia in marriage.

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She called telling me my life is spilling all over everyone elses life. I'm sorry but it's really beyond my control.

I'm sorry to let you worry the whole morning today.

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Caught a movie with Phoenyx & colleague. "Take the Lead" It's a fantastic show. It makes me have a total new perspective of ballroom dancing. I think I'm gonna go get the sound track and the DVD. Hmm... making me feel like taking up ballroom dancing classes.

During dinner tonite, I've discovered something. Something which is so so unbelievable. Phoenyx looks like my ex. So so so much alike. His side profile, his ways of making me laugh, his behaviour. He even dance like him! He doesn't drink and smoke like him too. But thats besides the point. Maybe tats why I'm feeling so comfortable ard him. the feeling of something so familiar. He is a nice person to be with. But Phoenyx is definitely someone more down to earth than my ex. Thank God.