I just realised that I'm beginning to blog less and less. For the whole of 2009 I've only had 17 entries and there are 365 days.

2009 have not been a very good year for me. Lets hope for something better in 2010.

Met him again after a year plus. After so many years he is still him.

I dunno why I'm feeling sad. Am I feeling sad for him? Yes! Maybe I am. I still wish to see him do well but it seems like there's no change in him at all. Haiz! I'm lost for words. Seriously I am.

Well I'm not doing exactly very well myself. Who am I to comment about him?

He's still a kiddo somewhere in his world. He won't lose??? To who? sighZ! Would anyone bother? Seriously I'm totally not curious what he wears to attend a wedding. Would there be a difference?

因为你我笑了很多。因为你我辛福过。
怀念着那牵着手在海边漫步。怀念着那静静的躺在你肩上。
要求很简单。要求也不多。
你走了。心碎了。
无法找回那感觉。
试着淡忘。试着习惯。
这就是我无法放下的爱情吗？
泰国华兴留下了我最美好的爱情回忆！

看了雪之女王。只要求能找到个像韩太雄献给金宝珞那一份单纯，简单和执著的爱。陪着她走完一生。 或许那只是一个故事。

Hmm... the song Don't Walk Away by Cho Gyu Chan still touches my heart very very much no matter how many times I replay it!

Hmm... anyone knows where I can get the mp3? Let me know!

Lesson well learned! Never will I ever try dating a younger guy again! Guess they never know how to treat a lady rite. Or is my standard too high? Don't think so.... haha! Well tats life I guess.

A leopard can never changed it's spot. Thot something might change after all these years. But it's back to SQ ONE again! How come I'm not surprised at all?


Don't let someone become a priority in your life when you are only an option in theirs! How true. Damn! I got to get this into my brain!

Went for another birthday make over. Just collected my photos today. Not exactly that excited after the 3rd time. But just for keep sake.

He never makes time for me in the past. Recently he has been trying to make time for me but now is the other way round. I do not have time for him.

Yandi told me that he had chatted with him and he confessed that he still has the romantic feelings for me. Well guys chat... hmm...

Relationship has been a chore to me. I no longer know if I'm ever gonna be ready for it anymore. I do hope for it yet I do not dare to embrace it when it's here. Sigh!

Hmm... my laptop is dying on me. Need to get a new desktop which is good for my photo editing. But am really tight on my budget. Sigh.... that's the problem with no income. I don't even dare to think of installment.

When will my income start coming in? Need to work extremely HARD!


Silly! Should have said yes to Henry when he wanted to get me the iMac previously! haha!

I've just made another big decision in my life. If I wanna work hard I might as well work hard for myself instead of working for someone.

Another window of opportunity has opened up for me. Peter is right. Only with ample capital then will I be able to bring my hobby/interest further. I only hoped that I have a good mentor to guide me along.

Insecurity, peer pressure, low self esteem and stupidity do they come as a package? Oh maybe lets add a bonus: pea brain!

It just gets on my nerves!

I'm suddenly overcomed with the feelings of being so jaded about life! Why is this so? It felt so intense!

Why do some people make themselves sounds so selfless when the actual fact is that they are indeed selfish?

I'm tired once again! Sigh!

Forced by my mum to go 求签 on my marriage last year. It was a 上上签。It made me believe things could worked out. Now looking back I really feel silly that I was pinning so much on that little hope and faith that I had.

So now all the more it had made me believed that I'm not wrong being a free thinker! It's a real relieve that it didn't worked out. I'm pretty happy about it.

Just watched Ai-en (Lover) a Korean Movie. It touched me. I don't know how but well I can somehow relate to it.

Love one of the song in the movie. Managed to find it online. Have added the link to my blog. Click on it to listen to the song.

Don’t Walk Away Lyrics (Ae-in / Lover OST)

Singer: Cho Gyu Chan - 조규찬

I’ve been waiting

I’ve been searching for a beautiful one like you

I’ve been crying in the darkness

Like the bottom of the ocean

Please don’t walk away, ’til I melted by our dream

Don’t think I’m insane,

I just want to be loved.

I’ve been waiting

I’ve been searching for a beautiful one like you

I’ve been crying in the darkness

Like the bottom of the ocean

Please don’t walk away, ’til I melted by our dream

Don’t think I’m insane, I just want to be loved.

Am excited... Ping just sms me today that she had a drawing for me. That day she showed me her work. She had written a chinese character 乐 which was done in a very artistic way. Hmmm... told her I love it then she told me she would do something for me too. She did a 马 for me coz I was born in the year of the horse. Can't wait to see it. Think I'll frame it and hang it in my room.

Hmmm... do I have the time to collect it from her tomorrow?

Grrr! Need to meet Ah Ber, Zhi Chen & Jiachen tomorrow! Better dun be late haaha! Late comer blanja lunch... but dun really care! COZ girls are entitled to be LATE! Hmm... seems like those poly classmates I'm only keeping in touch with the guys. Totally have no contact numbers of those girls. Well.... it's not unusual anyway.

Just found out today that the oldest tree on earth is over 4000 years old! Amazing!

Not wanting to squeeze with the crowds. Decided to do our countdown @ Hui's place. Hui's not in Singapore and Ping is house sitting for her so we went over to her place to do our new year's countdown. Ping, Joddie Maz and myself!

Are we getting old or wat? haaha! Went groceries shopping and decided to cook dinner @ home. After dinner all of us went swimming, steam room & soak in jacuzzi!

Hmm... a nice little "not so quiet" evening together. It's nice to have our own girls gathering without the guys once in a while! =)

Happy New Year!

Brand New Year with a Brand New Start! =)