There are many stuff I do not understand. How does 2 people get together? How do we know that 2 persons are suppose to be together? How do we look for the other half? How on earth do we find the correct wrong? How can 2 people live together for the rest of their lifes?

I'm done with Henry. Raymond and Johnson are still hanging ard in my life. I really feel for Ellsen but I'm not getting any response from him. How do I know who is right for me? Should I be with someone who would love me? Or do I need to have feelings for them too? I really do not know if I should feel for anyone. Do I need love? Or am I only needing companionship. Totally confused with my love life.

Alone is good. Alone gives you all the freedom. Alone means you dun have to report your locations. Alone means you can go out with whoever and where ever you want. I think I want my life like a bird. Fly free like them whenever I want. Is this call selfish? I dunno. I really dun want to be a goody two shoes anymore. Why should I be good to pple always? Why can't I even get a little wee bit of real concern without any motives? I'm tired of giving unconditioned love and concern to anyone anymore. I really do not know what had killed that in me. Tired. I really am.