There seems minimum space left for my tolerence level. I dunno wat's happening to me. Sometimes it just makes me feel that there's no hope for anything. What is it that I'm unable to let go. Many decisions I've made just screws up my life. I'm trying hard to find whatever thats left of my determination and confidence to go on. I'm so so so afraid to just leave things to my heart anymore. I could no longer trust my heart. I'm just so so so afraid to be hurt once again.