I just can't make myself do this anymore! It has been 5 years. You have been the man I've wanted after I shut off for 5 years trying to get over Darrick. It has been hard on me. But you've moved me. You really have. I've gone against everyone to be with you, Do you know how hard it has been on me? I can take nonsense from everyone but I need to know that you are worth me taking all the nonsense. But you choose not to trust me. You do not trust me to handle things properly. Do you know how much you had hurt me? It hurts so bad. It really does. I can't bring myself to accept this. It hurts so bad that it has really killed part of me.

Is that a curse? Maybe I'm really meant to be alone. I can't make myself like anyone whom I can't give my heart to. I've never doubt your love for me. Never! It's just not meant to be. Happiness is never meant to happen to me.