If you are not too long

I'll wait here all my life

-- Oscar Wilde

I'm getting so sleepy here in Suzhou office.

Weather cold and nothing much to do. Why am I here in Suzhou?

HELP!

Hmm... only realised last nite when I came back from the movie that I've lost my necklace. One of my favourite. Yeah rite. cost me a bomb too! Sigh! What a day!

I'm gonna miss it!

Robin has asked me something. Have I gotten past Henry. I said YES! I lied! But I'm trying hard to get over him tho. Someone whom I've loved so deeply before how could I say I'll forget and forget so easily? I can only try my very best to get over. The hurt was too much to bear. No one knows how bad it was. I had to bear that alone. I've not cried so bad in front of anyone before. Robin was there to witness my hurt.

He definitely have affected me in many ways. I can only get by each day trying to put everything behind. Do things to divert my attention from thinking about him.

Good Luck Karen!

Flowers received on this day again. This time round is given by another person. Obviously this new person does not know what kinda flowers I like. Even Robin & Lee Choo wonders why this person send me lilies.

I guess Jonathan totally given up already. He has been like sending me flowers for consecutive 3 years. Known him for 7 years. Have been after me tat long a period of time. Guess he and me just not fated. Personality totally opp. he won't even lift a leg to go for a walk. Sigh! Having heart attack @ age 31. It's all due to unhealthy diet and total non excercise!

Hmm... why are all the pple whom I can't really accept are after me? The person that I wanted didn't even make any move at all. This is frastrating. But after some time I'll just feel that being alone is not so bad after all. Being alone makes me feels lonesome at times but I get to do all the things I want without any restriction at all. I need a lot of personal space! I really do! I dun think anyone can tie me down.

If you love me, LET ME BE FREE!

Ronghui just called me last nite. What the both of us are attracted to is each other's personality haaha! But sad to say we are not attracted to each other. I think I'm looking forward to find someone of his personality and he is looking forward to find someone of my personality. Good luck to the both of us!

V Day! Just like another ordinary day has passed.

I just can't make myself do this anymore! It has been 5 years. You have been the man I've wanted after I shut off for 5 years trying to get over Darrick. It has been hard on me. But you've moved me. You really have. I've gone against everyone to be with you, Do you know how hard it has been on me? I can take nonsense from everyone but I need to know that you are worth me taking all the nonsense. But you choose not to trust me. You do not trust me to handle things properly. Do you know how much you had hurt me? It hurts so bad. It really does. I can't bring myself to accept this. It hurts so bad that it has really killed part of me.

Is that a curse? Maybe I'm really meant to be alone. I can't make myself like anyone whom I can't give my heart to. I've never doubt your love for me. Never! It's just not meant to be. Happiness is never meant to happen to me.

I hate the feeling of being stalked! Why can't you just leave my blog alone? Why can't you just READ ONLY? I dun need your comments! I'm getting pretty sick of telling you all these! I know how to handle my life! SO QUIT TELLING ME WAT TO DO!

This is so fucked up! Dun blame me this time if I really shut off from you! You only have yourself to blame!

Why can't these pple give me the PEACE I need? The more you push the further I'll go! Dun come blame me later that I'm ignoring everyone! I'm sick of work and I'm sick of everyone pushing me ard!

BE CAREFUL! BE VERY CAREFUL of wat you do!

Better give me the space I need!

Thot it will be hard to look for a new job. But once I submitted my resume, less than 3 hours, I got called up for 2 interviews.

This time I really had enough at work. But it's definitely not the work that dissed my off but its basically those idiotic pple tat dissed me off. It's really high time I look for a new envoirnment to start all over again. Should I get back to accounts again? I would love to try out event co-ordinator instead.

I hate this feeling! What's there to fight over with? If it's yours its yours! How many times do I have to say this? This is damn fucking frustrating! I should shut myself down! Just work and home!