Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICCA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
hey
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
hey =)
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
whats up? =)
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
nahhhh... just say hi
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
ok la...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
wanna chat with me about anything?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
haahaa chat with you later everything all talk about nookie again
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
wat else can we chat about?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
actually wun la...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you in the mood for serious talk?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
hard to chat with you lah
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
well nothing much bout serious mood or wat
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if can chat just chat loh
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
actually much easier now cause i read you blog many many times...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
just feeling a bit bored
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
note the absence of the "=)"
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
read my blog many many times?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i in serious mood...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
wat for?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
nothing much bout my blog
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
see whats going on in your mind lor... things that you often hide away from me...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i ask you now...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
can you completely forget about me?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i did?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
of coz not
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
like i say i got to get on with my life
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
yes....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
life's got to go on with or without you
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
forget me and move on please...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
true...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
dun just say...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
do....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am a jerk you know that...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i will move on... forget?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
nahhh some things you can't just forget
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
its revenge you want?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i did what i have to do...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
revenge i've never thot of that b4
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i know
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you just do wat you have to do
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
believe it or not... i was hurt very badly too... contary to your delusions...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
it's your life too
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you keep saying can never forget how i break your heart....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i tell you now...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
for the record...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
contary to my delusions?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
it was you who broke mine....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
regardless wat happen
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i dun deny i break yours
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i guess you just do not know how i felt then
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
it's ok
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
both of us have our own view points
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
dun worry
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i've never hated you
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
so there won't ever be any revenge
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i do... i hated you... i had my revenge... and now i hate myself...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you had your revenge?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i know maybe perhaps you will be posting this log onto your blog again...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i do hope it will serve as a closure to us...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you want a closure to us i can only say that if you really want it i'll fulfill this closure
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i can't stop you from hating me
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
it will... and i just want you to know that i am very sorry we dragged on for so long...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
and for opening up the fresh wounds over and over again...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
there isn't a need for sorry
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
and for making you cry...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
let the next guy make you as happy as i once did...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to care bout my tears
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
wat can i say?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you know your tears always mean something to me...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
dun forget i loved you very very very deeply once before...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i can only say that sometimes you just can't be with the person you truely love
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
now you can forget all about me....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
dun...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i fully understand that
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i can only say that i have always wish the best for you
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i do still care for you even now
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
pls pls pls..
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
don't....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
for one very simple reason...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am not worth it....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
it's just one side... dun worry you dun have to care bout me... you hate me remember?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to care bout how i feel
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
dont make me hate myself even more...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i dont want to be responsible...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i want to be the kid that i am...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to be responsible for anything
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
we are no longer related remember?
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you are feeling this way due to me...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i dont want to be in your life anymore...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i dont want to be your pain...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to be.
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
let me out...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
it's your choice
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you are out
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
let me go...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
then go
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you have let go then you just go
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i'm not stopping you
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i can have my own memories
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
guess i'm not like you
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am bound by your memories....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
why would you be bounded by my memories?
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you want to be the kid you are
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you have really forgotten me
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
if you really hated me
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you wouldn't be bounded by anything bout me at all
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
you know since our pa toh days...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
rem at cineleisure...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i guess if we had never started anything we would have been the best of frens
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
after movie you ask me to just go home on my own...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i insist on seeing you to the bus stop at least...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i told you i am not a 6 year old boy....
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i know
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am bounded that way now...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i dont want to be...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you dun have to be
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
wat has happen between us is already the past
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
then please dun be sad anymore....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
that is what stands in our way of being normal frens...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
because you hold the past too tightly...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i'm sory i just can't
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i mean i just can't say forget and i'll forget
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you may think i'm emotionally strong i'm not as strong as you think i am
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
you handle it better than i do
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i'm glad you did
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
until the day you can do so... there will be forever a barrier btw us...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
so for our sake...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
let go of the past...
Mo Cuishle ()...[ATTICA on SUNDAY!] www.ladysummer.blogspot.com says:
i'm trying hard to let go
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
so that we can start a new
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i know...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
so you see... i had no choice but to go...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
its not that i am bigot...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
but i know i going will hurt you lots...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am going to disappear totally...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i am serious this time...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
i hope our conversation tonight will help seal some closure...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
please...
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
be happy....
(*⌒.^)ⓢⒽⓐⒹⓔⓈ✪ⓞⒻ✪ⓡⒺⓓ™(^ε⌒*) says:
so long...

Is this the end? Will this really put a closure to everything? Will everything start afresh? Will I forget everything? I have all the answers to these questions but does it helps? How are you able to make yourself forget anything? We can only try not to think about it or not to bring it up ever again. We are not computers. We just can't delete our memories as and when we want. Don't you understand?

Memories are not meant to be forgotten. It's not as easy as you think it is.

Life will go on for me for sure. Just wanna let you know my love for you have already evolved. It is no longer the love I had for you in the past. Our love have already come to a full stop. Pls do not misunderstood me. I've gone on. The love I have for you now is only friendship. If you think by avoiding me is the best way for you, go ahead. All I know is that I dun have the need to avoid you.

Found this in my Frienster this morning. I'm quite touched. Indeed we have known each other for quite sometime oredi. I'm sure that we are constantly exploring each other. I'm sure there are still many stuff that we do not know bout each other. Since you have decided to keep me close to you for many years to come we'll take our time to know each other better and more. *HUGZ* Thanks for your frenship dear.



"char bo! Woah I know this char bo for quite a while liao. She has been pretty much the same all these years on the whole. Perhap she keeps a lot of things in her just like I do, except that I tend to protray emotions more readily. Just a gut feel there. Nonetheless she knows what she wants most of the time and is definitely a great fren to have. We're travelled. She's seen my ear needle pierced. Had her vigin trip to the foot reflex man. A lot of 'first times' were done together. perhaps when i'm with her i get into the impromptu mood, and plunge into whatever that stands before me. karen's a fren that i would want to keep close to me for many many years, cause unlike others i know she won't break my glass heart. luv ya babe! you do know i'm with u in what you do. i'll see u soon! :)"

Met up with Mark and GB last nite. While waiting for Gb to come, me and Mark went shopping. He wanted some facial products and I brought him to Face Shop. Wanted to intro him the mushroom mask but it was out of stock. Went to Body Shop and guess wat. He bought S$100 plus of Body Shop products which of coz include some of my items lol! We call it the retail therapy. Wanted to pay him back but he asked me to give him a treat next time we meet. Well... thanks pal!

Next stop... MAKAN! Walked past Wan Yang Health Products & Foot Reflexology Centre. Mark suddenly digged out from his wallet a "slated vege card" lol he had signed up 2 years ago for a foot reflex package. He decided to give me a foot reflex treat. hmmm... My first foot reflex. Goosh... I'm quite nervous. My threshold for pain is not that high. Heard tat it can be quite pain. Went in sat down and the reflex started. Feels shiok! but not for long... haahaa! All my problem areas starts to surface! My tailbone, gastric, my shoulders and ermmm... my brain also kena haahaa maybe it's due to stress.

Mark suddenly commented we shared quite a few of our "First Time" come to think of it... quite true.

Our first time going holiday one on one together, his first time piercing of ear with needle, I was there, me first time dancing on the podium at a club he was there, his first time puking after drinking I was there (errr... was it his first time? lol!) and my first time foot reflex he was there.

Wonder how many more of our first time we are gonna share again *grinz*

It was quite fun that nite chatting. Been a long time since I've met up with GB. Think it's bout a year or more already. She's getting married in Dec. Am happy for her. It's high time for her to tie the knot too =) Mark volunteered to be her door bitch at her wedding and tat was exactly wat I'm thinking haahaa! "Great mind think alike and fools seldom differ"

Sometimes when you read all these, you really feel like laughing. This is so amusing yet there's at least 90% truth in it.

Men:
1. All men are extremely busy.
2. Although they are so busy, they still have time for women.
3. Although they have time for women, they don't really care for them.
4. Although they don't really care for them, they always have one around.
5. Although they always have one around them, they always try their luck with others.
6. Although they try their luck with others, they get really pissed off if the woman leaves them.
7. Although the woman leaves them they still don't learn from their mistakes and still try their luck with others!

Women:
1. The most important thing for a woman is financial security.
2. Although this is so important, they still go out and buy expensive clothes and stuff.
3. Although they always buy expensive clothes, they will still say that they never have something to wear!
4. Although they never have something to wear, they always dress beautifully.
5. Although they always dress beautifully, you hardly care.
6. Although you hardly care, they still expect you to compliment them.
7. Although they expect you to compliment them, when you do, they don't believe you!

Johnson the guy in NIKE T-Shirt

Johnson sms me yesterday afternoon asking me, Sandy and a few other chatters if we are free to meet for dinner, 7pm at the ever famous ba kut teh stall at Balestier.

Everyone says see first and end up only me and Johnson actually turned up for dinner.

The Ba Kut Teh from "Fa Qi Ren Rou Gu Cha" is indeed good. The soup is fantastic, salted vege is so fresh and the meat for the ba kat is really tender. We really enjoyed the dinner.

As I was out with him tonite, I can't help thinking. Many have commented that he is very stingy but he was never stingy on me. Last time I understood why he was never stingy on me but till now he's still the same to me. Haahaa maybe I'm thinking too much. Quite a few seems not to have good impression of him but not me. As a matter of fact I do find him very nice. Someone who is mature, someone who think twice before speaking and making decision. Someone who listens and give sensible advise. He is also someone who is very thrifty and maybe due to that many mistake him as stingy. I guess it takes one to know him better or someone who talks to him often enuff to know that.

I was grumbling to him about my new colleague today on our way for dinner. He listens and telling me to give pple the benefit of doubt. Not many can do that now a days.

I used to give pple benefit of doubt. I think I've been changing... wondering if this is good or bad.

Pessimism: Most of the shadows of this life are caused by standing in one’s own sunshine.

A Friend...
(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally support
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T) ells you the truth when you needto hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)- plain things you don'tunderstand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and
(Z)aps you back to reality

Does this really happens? Will I be able to find this Friend? This world is giving me a lot of doubts recently. I used to be so full of hopes and optimistic in most things but recent months something seems to pull me down. Sigh.

Work is getting tough in IA. Now I fully understand this when my colleague sms me the other time.

I'm beginning to wonder. Am I in this job for too long? I used to look up to my Boss. Now? I seems to detest him more and more.

What has he done to have this drastic impact on me? He used to be very firmed in his decision but for the past 1 or 2 years, he is getting to be very forgetful and would normally thinks he has told us stuff but in fact didn't. No longer the I say wat I do style anymore.

To me he is getting to be more and more stubborn and seems to be very bias in his thinking.

How long more can I put up with this? I don't deny that I do make mistakes in my work. Like I've told you. I would never dream of taking the easy way out in my work. I do take my work seriously but will you ever understand? Sigh.

6 Jul 06, 10.31am
If can we come out for coffee one day k? =>

6 Jul 06, 10.36am
Glad to still have you =>

6 Jul 06, 10.40am
Sometime it's nice to have another friend to talk to =>

6 Jul 06, 10.46pm
Actually .. you know wat I really miss a lot... Its the period before we were together. As friends going out .. Crystal jade... Movies...

6 Jul 06, 10.54pm
no doubt that that's the main draw.. but really ... I do cherish your company and I've always been envious of your friendster pics.

8 Jul 06, 3.01pm
Wat you doing today? =>

8 Jul 06, 4.38pm
Last time saturday was our swimming day or was it sunday?

8 Jul 06, 4.47pm
Oh.. Silly me used to make my way Bukit Panjang all the way to Tampines for you =>


Why do you wanna bring up the past again? Or you just needed someone familiar to talk to? Sigh. You are the one that choose to give me up in the first place. I know I'll never go back to you again even if you were to ask me coz I know myself that I won't be able to face the hurt you have done to me the second time. You are the second person whom have made me fell so deep. It wasn't easy for me to pick myself up again but I managed to do it and get on with life. Or have I not. Coz thinking bout you at times still brought tears to my eyes. Maybe we are only fated to be friends and friends only. But I know that I'll always have that soft spot for you. Praying hard that it will never be abused.

Surfing and chance upon this. Tho it's describing feelings for GOD but indeed it does describe how I feel bout him. Dun ever think he will ever understand.

Broadway Aida: Easy as Life

This is the moment when the gods expect me
To beg for help but I won't even try
I want nothing in this world but myself to protect me
But I won't lie down, roll over and die
All I have to do is to forget how much I love him
All I have to do is put my longing to one side
Tell myself that love's an ever-changing situation
Passion would have cooled and all the magic would have died
It's easy, it's easy

All I have to do is to pretend I never knew him
On those very rare occasions when he steals into my heart
Better to have lost him when the ties were barely binding
Better the contempt of the familiar cannot start
It's easy, It's easy

Until I think about him as he was when I last touched him
And how he would have been were I to be with him today
Those very rare occasions don't let up they keep on coming
All I ever wanted and I'm throwing it away
It's easy, it's easy as life

But then I saw the faces of a worn , defeated people
A father and a nation who won't let a coward run
is this how the gods reward the faithful through the ages ?
Forcing us to prove the hardest thing we've done
Are easy So easy
And though I'll think about him til the earth draws in around me
And though I choose to leave him for another kind of love
There is no denial, no betrayal but redemption
Redeemed in my own eyes and in the pantheon above
It's easy It's easy as life It's easy as life It's easy as life

Been concentrating on my work and my driving lessons. I'm kinda shagged out by both. Recently have been feeling so tired and and no energy for any other stuff.

Been trying to get my ass out of the hse but to no avail. The only other places I can be found is either in the gym or at the swimming pool. Once I'm home, nothing can drag me out of my bedroom's doorstep. Ya.... been tat bad. Maybe I should find some time to catch up with some old frens and maybe go clubbing once in a while.

Hmm... maybe it will do me good. *grinZ*

Here's the photo you've been requesting me to put up. Good to know that you are now attached. Like I've said. At the same time you've broken quite a number of hearts. lol

I've just heard of the most absurb thing. Someone whom have been wishing you the best for you and your guy in your blog is actually jealous of you and your guy. Can't believe it. How hypocrite one can get. To even think that you had once admire his courage to confess his feelings to you.

Haahaa maybe you are just one lucky guy to have so many pple head over heels in love with you. It can be good but well not exactly very good in some ways too.

Nevertheless my dear fren. I'm wishing you the best in your relationship. Glad you have found someone who can appreciate you to the fullest.

Hope you will still have time for this fren of yours *GrinZ*