Was in a meeting this morning from 9am ~ 1.15pm. The clinic called me bout 10 times this morning. Can't get me and kept calling my home. It got me so worried coz I know the clinic would receive my X-Ray report today. Doc says I have a fracture and need to see a specialist. Asked him how bad he doesn't wanna tell me. Just tell me to meet up after work and he'll explain to me and besides it will be better if I get the advise from the specialist instead.

Fracture with displacement at the last sacral segment. Thats wat the report says. The drama mama Doc told me to go A & E. Messaged Jonathan and he told me it's not as bad as I think. Anyway it's also not urgent. Just got to let it heal slowly and if I'm really in pain then I got to just live with the painkillers for the time being and I'm still not taking it!

Ellsen was saying with such dramatic doc ard no wonder A & E is being abused. At the same time if for my case a specialist is being required why does he have to ask me to go A & E instead of going straight to the specialist instead? Why make me spend a bomb @ A & E then wait for them to refer again to a specialist?

Anyway I see the X-Ray, the crack seems to be pretty bad not the hairline crack which Ellsen mentioned. Will try to get my work done ASAP and go GH on thursday if not lastest Friday.

Mum die die want me to go see Chinese Doc! Hmmm... wat am I suppose to do?

Darn! Doc tells me I got to be out of action doing any sports activities for min. 5 ~6mths. I'll be bored to death! HELP!!! Now I really dun have a life anymore!

Doctor seen and X-ray done. Now waiting for results on Monday. Suppose to be living on painkillers which I refuse to take.

Cross my fingers that no operation is needed. Hope that its just a displacement of my tailbone.

hmm... told me must go see doc and let him know the results.

Why showing me so much concern? He's making me hard to resist him. Sigh!

Am I getting the wrong vibes? I really do not wanna 自作多情。

Words of hate we've said

And now we have to go

Part our separate ways

Because the love of yesterday

Will never be the same

Die! Went blading fell again and kena my tailbone. I dunno how long I'm going to take this time to recover. Think I better go and take a X-ray. Go see doc tomoro if I have the time.

Take pain killer! *faintz*

Ellsen's mum is undergoing Chemo. Sigh... it's not easy. Hope everyone in his family is coping well.

I've seen many cases that once the Chemo starts it actually fasten the spreading of cancer cells. If I've ever contracted cancer (final stage) I dun think I'll opt for treatment. Didn't want to prolong the suffering that I'll be going thru. If I opt for the treatment, not only will I prolong my own suffering but I think I'll prolong the suffering of my love ones.

Pple may deem this as an escape in life but I personally do not think so. It just makes everyone's life easier. I do not wish to be a burden to anyone especially my love ones.

For those who knows me and Henry.

150 Conjunction Moon - Mars
Positive aspect: Great physical passion and, as with every passion of this type, things can get stormy and heated. However, most of the time, the storms are sexy and exciting. Very passionate aspect, as it promises feeling behind the physical act. They desire each other always. The physical relations between the two are enhanced with desire and warmth. Great passion that doesn't fizzle out.

-128 Square Mars - Saturn
Negative aspect: It is very challenging for such a union to be happy, but if it progresses, it could easily become unbearable! Both parties must be committed to happiness in order for this to work.

114 Conjunction Mercury - Uranus
Positive aspect: No clouds in this couple's life. They have a good intellectual understanding, take pleasure in being together, in discussing and exchanging ideas.

104 Opposition Sun - Venus
Negative aspect: The two persons are drawn towards each other, but the union is unstable, because there will inevitably be division, probably through misunderstanding on the sexual level, which may frustrate the partner.

-98 Square Venus - Saturn
Negative aspect: Unfavorable union, as it will be very difficult for a Venus to put up with a Saturn who is too austere, cold, hides their feelings and puts Venus ill-at-ease.

-87 Opposition Sun - Mars
Negative aspect: Here is a couple which will have frequent disputes. Finding it impossible to speak calmly, they will always be aggressive towards each other. Conflict is caused because they both want to dominate the other. They cannot live on the basis of mutual understanding. The man is the type who lays down the law, gives orders, makes decisions and the woman is independent type, who cannot stand being limited, taking orders - the more so from her partner.

69 Trine Sun - Jupiter
Positive aspect: Here is a couple you like to be with. They are charming, agreeable and know how to entertain their friends generously and warmly. They go well together, and love each other in a discrete and sincere way, and appreciate the joys of life together.

68 Trine Venus - Pluto
Positive aspect: Great passionate affair, very intense and transforming. They feel that the relationship forces them to grow.

-66 Opposition Venus - Neptune
Negative aspect: The attraction is certainly there, but the relationship can lose its innocence quite easily. Venus misunderstands the other and will, without a doubt, be the only one who really is in love. Neptune might be unfaithful or might feel forced to lie in order to keep Venus happy. Venus seems unequipped to face reality.

-62 Square Mars - Uranus
Negative aspect: They make each other impatient and easily frustrate each other. The sexual attraction is unique and powerful at first, seeming to arise suddenly and unexpectedly. However, it is a temperamental attraction and can leave just as suddenly. Erratic responses to each other.

37 Trine Mars - Neptune
Positive aspect: A difficult union that can succeed, but could involve some distancing and dishonesty. Be very careful to be honest with each other, as deceptions have a way of coming to the light and great disappointments are possible as a result.

Spoke to Sharon today bout relationship. Seems like me and her are in almost the same predicament.

Being pretty close with Ellsen recently. In constant contact but when everything's quiet I seems to be lost. I dunno what I'm feeling but I would want the feelings to be mutual. Then again, I do not know how mutual the feelings are. Telling myself to take it slow and easy. If it comes it comes.

Just for curiosity sake. I know I'm silly but when I did the compatibility chart for myself and Henry it was like 99% so true. I can't stop myself from trying mine with Ellsen lolx!

Compatibility

This report lists and interprets the major aspects between the planets of two charts. Each aspect formed possesses an energy of its own, but all aspects combine to make up the overall energy of the relationship. The interpretations of each inter-planetary aspect are given here, and each is described as positive or negative. Negative aspects are part of any good relationship, and positive aspects are found in challenging partnerships. Lasting unions can be laden with challenging, or negative, aspects. In most fulfilling relationships, however, there are more positive aspects than negative.

This report does not attempt to forecast whether a relationship will last or whether it will be considered fulfilling for each party involved. However, it reveals some of the strengths and weaknesses of a relationship.

Inter-planetary aspects
The following aspects between planets concern the possible relationships between two charts: especially the emotional and romantic relationship, but also aspects on social, intellectual and spiritual levels.

284 Trine Sun - Moon
Positive aspect: This is likely to be a significant relationship. There is a strong feeling of belonging to one another, for better or for worse, that keeps the two together. It's an excellent aspect for a union: they are made to go well together, to understand, appreciate, love and complement each other.

261 Conjunction Moon - Mercury
Positive aspect: Ideal aspect for a couple, as they will have lots of interests and projects in common, and they will understand each other well. There is a mental rapport that sometimes borders on the telepathic.

-160 Square Mercury - Venus
Negative aspect: Their relationship will sometimes be agreeable, sometimes disturbed. They will like to share their ideas which are not always to the other's taste, so that they may have interminable discussions in order to convince each other of their mistakes, lack of judgement or lack of taste.

137 Conjunction Sun - Saturn
Positive aspect: Here is a couple you can call stable. They will lead their life together quietly, with friendship slowly replacing love. Saturn will dominate the Sun - as is only natural - but the Sun might find this difficult to accept. In any case, as the Sun likes to feel secure, Saturn is a perfect partner.

98 Trine Mercury - Mars
Positive aspect: They stimulate each other to be more creative and expressive. They learn a great deal from each other. They understand each other, like to discuss things with each other and undertake joint initiatives. Great intellectual understanding.

98 Trine Mercury - Jupiter
Positive aspect: An ideal couple, prosperous, happy, good intellectual understanding, great confidence in each other, a successful family life.

76 Trine Moon - Saturn
Positive aspect: They will lead their lives together, with the Moon bringing fantasy to Saturn, who is sometimes too austere but whose other qualities (which the Moon does not possess) are appreciated. Two people whose difference in character is made to complement each other.

73 Sextile Mars - Uranus
Positive aspect: Favorable for union, linking originality to initiative and decision-making.

70 Trine Mars - Saturn
Positive aspect: A life together with few problems, love will develop into friendship, they will understand each other and go well together. It can be a little routine at times, and there is some self-consciousness with each other.An indication that they will both be faithful.-

38 Opposition Saturn - Uranus
Negative aspect: Challenging in terms of perspectives. There can be distinct times when they argue about restrictions on freedom.

My heart is feeling really heavy now at this point when i'm writing this. I just came back from visiting and i saw a cat lying in a pool of blood struggling to survive.

Someone must have thrown the cat from the high floor. I cannot imagine why would anyone do such sickening act.

Why didn't they even stopped to think would they want anyone to treat them this way? If there's really karma I do hope the person that did this to the poor cat will get it soon.

I do really believe wat goes ard comes ard. Beware of wat evil thots and actions you have in mind!

Okz I've also finish Season 1 & Season 2 of Nip Tuck. Now what else can I get myself hooked on? Should I try OC instead? But I dun seems to have much interest in OC. Maybe I should search for Season 3 of Nip Tuck instead.

Hmm... recently my bro digged out an old family photo. This is my Bro's 1st birthday party. Look @ my mushroom head hairstyle lolx! But then again. That's my fav. dress when I was young. So I'm actually quite "girl" after all. Can't believe I'm wearing bangles too haaha!

Hmmm... should I cut my hair shorter and get some colors on it? What colors should I highlight? Red? Blue? Purple? Grrrr! Can't make up my mind where to get my hair done and wat color I should highlight! Damn! I look a mess! HELP!

The latest donut in town .... DONUT FACTORY! Darn! I can't imagine how I let Robin talked me into Q-ing 1hr 15mins for 12 pcs of donuts which I didn't even fancy! *faintz*

Well maybe like he says. At least I tried it.

The only donuts which I really fancy are still the traditional normal type with very fine sugar toppings *GrinZ*

I had better start updating my blog.... if not it's gonna turn mouldy.

My secondary school classmate got married on 1st Jan 2007. A fantastic date to remember for their anniversary huh? Getting married is not as simple as it seems. Tons and tons of things to prepare and also to think of. Its fun but it's damn tiring!

Joanna getting married is also a good chance for us to get together. We had not talked so much in years. Her hubby is also a very friendly and nice chap to hang out with. Very easy to get along.

Hope the group of sec. sch frens will have more chance to gather for some fun.