Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career,
however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

- by Max Ehrmann c. 1920s

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is overAre you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Oh
Why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong

29 Jun 06, 8.59pm
How have you been? Nice pics on friendster.. Miss ya..

Reply: I'm fine. How are you?

29 Jun 06, 11.06pm
Fine too.. Did i mention tat i miss you? =>

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29 Jun 06, 11.16pm
Wat's up recently?

No Reply

29 Jun 06, 11.36pm
Phone rings....

Me: Harlow?
Him: Where are you?
Me: Home loh... (MSN alert went off, change songs on my laptop. Playing: Corrine Bailey Rae... Trouble Sleeping)
Him: Oh you BZ. Wah.. sounds like "orr lang" song
Me: ya but not "orr lang"
Him: you BZ? then you go and do your things. err....reply msn or go listen to your music.
Me: BZ no leh MSN i can don't reply and music I every nite also listen. Hey.. I thot you dun wanna talk to me liao?
Him: Errr... ok bye bye.
Me: Still so small gas as ever. ok loh bye.
Him: bye. I going to sleep liao (hangs up)

29 Jun 06, 11.39pm
Comments liao liao =>

Reply: Well tats me. You first day know me?

29 Jun 06, 11.44pm
Know you inside out =>

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29 Jun 06, 11.52pm
Well.. Just to let you know tat I'm glad to see and hear you doing well.. And tat I've been thinking about you.. =>

Reply: Thanks for your thots about me. Hope you are doing well too.

Moral of the whole correspondence? I dunno too. As usual... you are always the one who tells me we shouldn't contact. Ultimately you would be the first one to start communication all over again.

You are someone whom I've really put my heart and soul into. You are also the one who has hurt me the deepest. I've put the past behind but I'll always have a soft spot for you. Could never bring myself to hate you at all.

If she is the one for you, be good to her. Tho her temper is definitely worse than mine but I guess you needed that *grinZ* maybe I've been too giving to you in the past too. I really do wish to see you do good in life.

May God Bless You.

Yours (Ex).

Life: Life is a lively process of becoming.

4th driving lesson. Instructor: Clifford. A very nice chap. Highlighted my weak points and make me practice it. Advising me on when would be a good time to come for certain lessons which I didn't even think about it.

Even give me extra time to ask him questions after the lesson time ended. He make sure I understand bout engaging engine brake b4 letting me go =) During lesson he keeps encouraging me. Things I've done wrong he reminded me and repeat himself all over again. If i've done well he will give encouragement. I'm totally at ease today tho there are too much instructions to remember and to follow. Hope I'm able to perform at the next lesson.

He also offered to assist me in the event if i'm sometimes confused by instructors' given instructions on the DOs and Don'ts, feel free to catch him ard the school and clarify with him.

PS: I got a feeling if I'm driving next time I'll be caught for speeding lol! Just today I'm driving at 60km/h at my 4th lesson. I simply hate the brakes. I'm able to control the bends pretty well with my 40km/h speed but Clifford keeps complaining I'm going too fast at the bend. I had better slow down if I want a pass. *GrinZ*

Life in office is getting tougher.

Colleagues.... especially the senior ones are getting more nonchalant with many things happening ard us.

Just yesterday a colleague sms me telling me how stressed out and unhappy he is at work. I guess he is not used to the change of the company especially Boss.

I can fully understand. Most of the time you put in your best efforts but kena put down from pple on top.

Thats life I guess. As for me I'm just making the best out of each day, week, month and year. Learning every bit I can and experiencing every bit I can.

Motivation: Be Miserable. Or Motivate Yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice.

Hmm... last nite kena complain that I got everyone's photo up here but not his. Wei you got to know tat all the stuff i wrote i'll just put up relevant photos mah... you not in the picture hard to put your pic in here lol.

Good to know that you are finally attached. You better arange for your honey to meet up with me k? Since you are now attached haahaa I bet there are many out there gonna be heart broken. Trust me.

And dun forget the stuff you have gotten for me all the way from London =) So when are you free???

So here goes... My dearest Mark with me on my birthday. *clapZ*

Hmm... a boring sunday for me. Couldn't go out. Had to attend to some urgent matters at home.

Finally had my laptop. Not much of a diff having a laptop or a PC haahaa maybe I've got one thats too big. I've got a 17" laptop. My Bro was commenting that I've got something too good and I won't even make full use of it. It's more for gamers instead. Who cares! lol I love my lappie.

Anyway I won't be bringing my lappie out. No reason for me to bring it out too. It's more for space reason.

Yippie... I passed my Advance Theory today! Took me bout 20mins. Thot i would fail coz there are bout 5 questions I'm kinda in doubt. Well who cares now.... I got a pass!

Third driving lesson today too. Gear Shifting... conducted by Patrick my new instructor. He is good... dare to let me go on the road! haahaa Glad everything is ok.

Gear shifting. I'm rather weak with my clutch release. Now I fully understand that why pple say driving needs lotsa concentration lol When I'm concentrating on my gear, clutch, accelerator, steering wheel, side mirrors and rear mirror, I hardly notice where i'm driving to. I'm just following instructions blindly... "Go straight... turn left at junction, change gear, reaching bend... slow down etc..." until I drove thru the road second time then I realise I just passed thru Ubi, the road which I travel home everyday! wat a sotong i am.

Pray hard I'll pass my driving practical test as easy as my theory test *grinz*

Hmm... guess wat? My instructor today is Casey again. COOL! I'm not as nervous as last week. Today was learning how to take the bends. Think I must have done pretty well. Casey asked me if I've ever drive before. Think he must be pretty surprised that I'm a first timer.

Enjoyed my lesson today. Can't believe I managed to chat with my instructor and drive at the same time. Casey's almost 40 this year but he look so young. Max I give him 35. Showed me his children's photo on his mobile while we waited for our turn to pump petrol. Also telling me he loves to speed when he was younger regardless he is riding a bike or driving. Hmmm... now no choice being an instructor if he kena 6 points his instructor's license will be revoked.

Can't wait for my lesson tomorrow again. Dun think I'll see Casey tomorrow.

Ohhhh yay YEAH! Had an exciting nite. My first practical driving lesson tonite. I really thot I would crash the car tonite. I was nervous the whole day till 10.20pm when i finished my lesson with Casey. It went quite well. My very first instructor, Casey is a really nice and patient man. In fact he is quite humourous too. I enjoyed my very first lesson with him. Hope most of the instructors are gonna be as jovial as Casey.

Driving is fun. Hope I'll get my license soon enuff. *keeping my fingers crossed*

Recently I've just read DAN BROWN's The Davinci Code. Came upon something very interesting.

PHI (pronounce as fee) =1.618

The number PHI was derived from the Fibonacci sequence - a progression famous not only because the sum of adjacent terms equalled the next term, but because the quotients of adjacent terms possessed the astonishing property of approaching the number 1.618 - PHI.

PHI, its role as a fundamental building block in nature. Plants animals and even human beings all possessed dimensional properties that adhere exactitude to the ratio of PHI to 1.

PHI ubiquity in nature clearly exceeds coincidence, and so the ancients assumed the number PHI must have been preordained by the creator of the universe. Early scientists heralded 1.618 as the Divine Proportion.

Belows are examples of Divine Proportion in Nature:

If you divide the number of female bees by the number of male bees in any beehives in the world, you always get the same number.

PHI! 1.618

Sunflower seeds grow in opposing spirals. The ratio of each rotation's diameter to the next...

PHI! 1.618

Leonardo Da Vinci understood the divine structure of the human body. He actually exhumed corpses to measure the exact proportions of the human bone structure. He was the first to show that the human body is literally made of building blocks whose proportional ratios always equal to PHI.

Below is Leonardo Da Vinci's famous male nude - The Vitruvian Man - named for Marcus Vitruvius, the brilliant Roman architect who praised the Divine Proportion in his text De Architectura.















Try measuring the distance from the tip of your head to the floor. Then divide that by the distance from your belly button to the floor.

PHI! 1.618

Measure the distance from your shoulder to your fingertips and then divide it by the distance from your elbow to your finger tips.

PHI! 1.618

Measure hip to floor divided by knee to floor.

PHI! 1.618

I'm very very impresed with this. One of these days I'll really try the human body measurement. *grinz*